For a long time, longer than I care to remember, I was miserable … with life, myself, everyone and, well, everything. I experienced conflict in all areas of my life, from jobs to relationships. As a child, I watched my parents live miserable existences, so that’s all I knew! I also began my married life miserable, settling for a man for whom I did not have passion. He loved me, though, and I thought that was more important. I believed he could be the key to my happiness, but after we battled our way through the early years of our marriage, I learned that I was wrong to look for happiness outside of myself.
Eventually, I began looking for answers in self-help books. I purchased a few, but couldn’t get through them. One of the books was Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch. I remember my first attempt at reading it. I absolutely did not get it! I thought, “What is this crap?” Needless to say, I put it on a shelf where it stayed and collected dust for many years.
Then, at a low point in my life, I decided something had to change. I had been working at home for thirteen years as a U.S. patent editor when I decided that my career was the safest place to take the first step into a new way of life. This was an odd decision for me since I was not one who normally took risks. However, I knew in my heart that something just had to give.
After making this decision, I somehow (I don’t remember exactly how) became inspired to become a real estate agent.
And making this choice was a turning point in my life.
In real estate, I crossed paths with some of the nicest, sweetest, happiest people I had ever met. I honestly had no idea so much happiness existed! (I probably should have gotten out of the house a lot sooner!)
They loved and accepted me.
I felt like part of a family.
Suddenly, I became happier! Then, amazingly, as a result of this shift in my perspective, everything else in my life began to change as well. My relationship with my husband became an honest, true love relationship. Most importantly, my “story” about myself changed. I found myself telling people how much I loved my life rather than telling them about the things that were going wrong.
One afternoon, my real estate office manager commented on how upbeat I was and asked if I had ever seen the movie “The Secret.” After listening to her rave about how wonderful it was, I went home and ordered a copy of the DVD for myself that same day, and when it arrived, I watched it right away.
The effect it had on me was remarkable.
My entire being knew instinctively that what I watched was “The Truth.”
And it made me cry my eyes out.
Finally! I thought to myself as I watched. Finally, I have answers to so many of my questions about life!
After this experience, I embarked on a full-fledged journey for more information. I began reading every book I could find on the subject of positive thinking and creating my own reality. It was like a hunger that I needed to satisfy! One book led me to the next and I soaked up all of the information like a sponge. It was wonderful!
One day, while sharing my new-found knowledge with my brother, he mentioned the book Conversations With God and he asked me about Neale Donald Walsch.
“Isn’t that one of the guys on the DVD?” he asked.
My heart jumped. I said, “You’re right! And I think I have that book in my library!”
Sure enough, I still had the dusty book, and so, I began reading it right away. To this day, I am amazed at the way I grasped its contents so quickly. It was as if I was reading it for the first time! I was blown away when I thought about how, all those years ago, the words on those pages seemed as if they were written in another language, but this time it was as if they were written just for me!
In other words: I “got it!”
I suppose what they say is true: When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.
Since that time, I have learned how to meditate, write affirmations, adjust my “self talk,” create vision boards and more. My new skills have led me to so many wonderful things! I have a ridiculously great job, have been married for 25 years now, and I constantly cross paths with like-minded people (who never cease to amaze me). The universe is always sending me feedback in the form of books, movies, people, events–all affirming that I’m on the absolute right path for me.Most of all, now, unlike before, there isn’t a single aspect of my life that doesn’t make me happy!
Now that is something I never thought I’d be able to say!
Today, I steer clear of drama by not watching the news, hanging out with negative people or participating in negativity in the workplace. I find that as long as I don’t fall in with or focus on that stuff, my life stays balanced. I’m always in a positive frame of mind, as long as I stay connected to the information, people and events that are in line with my beliefs. I post and “like” nothing but positive and helpful things on Facebook. I have a positive affirmation app on my phone. I keep a journal and an inspiring book by my bedside. When I first wake up, I don’t set one foot on the floor until I’ve sent love out into my day and give thanks for all of the wonderful things I’m about to experience. I don’t go to sleep at night before finding my place of gratitude so that I can “marinate” in it all night (a wonderful suggestion by Dr. Wayne Dyer). I have taken courses on how to balance key areas of my life with spirituality. I know it sounds like a lot, but it’s easy because I love it so much!
I wish the same miraculous journey for every single person who finds their way to this blog and this story!
After Rachel and Matthew had their first child, they had a couple of fights. Well, okay, more than a couple—they fought for over three years. They fought about schedules. They fought about bad habits. They even fought about the lawn mower. And besides actually having their child, it was the best thing that could've happened. Get Fights You’ll Have After Having a Baby: A Self-Help Story on Amazon now.